Defeated

It's hard to keep trying,
When reading another word makes me feel like crying.
I thought I was ready,
I thought this was going to be easy.
But now it's kicking my ass,
And I don't know if I can pass.

All my hope was shattered,
And now it feels like nothing even matters.
I'm struggling to pick up all the pieces,
And my frustration only increases.

Part of me wants to just give up now,
I want to think positive, but I just don't know how.
My last bit of hope is still trying to hang on,
But I don't know how much longer until it's gone.

I'm trying to me mature,
I'm going to see how much I can endure.
So send me your positive thoughts
And wish me good luck,
Because right now I simply don't give a ****.