Tonight I Want to Cry

It's funny how the smallest thing can bring out so many different emotions. It can dig up repressed feelings you had long buried deep inside you, with no plan on ever pulling them out of that tiny box you hid them in.

It's strange how a phone call or message from an old friend, or a story about someone you used to care about and thought you knew can make you choke up. You get to that point where you just want to give up...let the darkness and negativity consume you.

Sometimes you just want to cry.

It's easy to put up the front, wear the happy mask, or as I like to call it, my "happy face" but deep down you are screaming in frustration. Someone you used to see as an ally, as a friend, someone who recently completely tuned you out, suddenly reappears and acts as if months have not passed and they haven't done anything wrong...

Sometimes you just want to cry...

There's nothing wrong with a good cry. Sometimes we just need to let out all those emotions. For me, they are better expressed behind closed doors, with no witnesses. That good cry relieves that building pressure...it releases this weight off of your chest. All the hurt you feel, the pain, the disappointment, the feelings of betrayal, the frustration, they all seem to be washed away with your tears.

Sometimes you just need to cry.

Tonight I want to cry...