Saturday, November 28, 2009


I just wanted to take a minute to express my gratitude for all the amazing people in my life. I know I've said it before, but I don't think it can be said enough....

I am truly blessed. I am so grateful for all the people in my life and for those who are no longer a part of it...Everyone I have met has come into my life for a reason and I'm so thankful for each and every one of them.

Thank you.

Thanks for all the memories,
For helping me

Thanks for giving me someone in whom I could confide.
Thanks for helping me stay brave,
Even when all I wanted was to run and hide.

Thank you for helping me be strong,
And for helping me right my wrongs.
I owe so much to you all,
You've always been there to catch me when I fall.

I can't say thank you enough,
For all the support, love and the other stuff.
I am truly blessed,
And it's something I will continue to confess.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


Here is my random thought for the day...well if you know me, it's not that random.

I'm a firm believer in karma...the idea that what goes around comes around.

Last night I went out and a guy asked me if I'd be nice enough to watch his jacket while he went outside for a smoke. I said it wasn't a problem, I'd just keep it for him on the chair. Well dude never really came back. I saw him walk back inside the bar, but he didn't stop...I figured he'd come back when he remembered...time passed, and nothing. I was tired and ready to go, so I was extremely conflicted. It was a nice jacket, I could have easily walked out with it...but being the person I am, it felt wrong. So I decided to take a lap around the bar to see if I could find the guy. I walked the whole place twice, and nothing. As I approach our table the girls say he walked outside, so I decide to leave the jacket with them and they can give it back.

Another little nugget of information for you, there also happened to be cash in the that mysteriously fell out of the jacket and into the pocket of one of my friends. As we walk out of the bar I see him outside and we were parked in the opposite direction, but after a few steps something inside me was screaming. So I told my friend we had to give the money back. That it was the right thing to we turn around and go up to him and hand him the money, now dude was drunk, and was having a hard time standing on his own...but his friend was nice enough to say thank you and was genuinely surprised that we gave the money back...then complimented us on how nice we are for a couple of minutes before we left....

I walked away with a good feeling. I was proud of myself for giving it back and a bit embarrassed that I had considered not giving the jacket and money back. I'm hoping that this will work out in my favor in the near future...if not, it's still OK, because I know I did the right and responsible thing. It would have been easy to just walk out with everything, but it took a lot more to actually walk back.

Anyway, everything happens for a we'll see what happens next!!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Just For Tonight

I'm embarrassed to say I've been thinking about you.
But every time another one walks away,
You are where my thoughts turn to.

I've kept your memory locked up tight,
But I'm pulling it out just for tonight.
I know this is wrong,
And I'm trying to stay strong.

My thoughts always end up back on you,
And I secretly hope you're thinking of me too.
I know you shouldn't be,
We both turned our backs on you and me.

But I needed to say good-bye,
I was just too tired to try.
Our love is over and done,
You weren't the one.

I still think of you,
And how we used to be.
And I've tried to keep your memory locked up tight,
But I'm thinking of you just for tonight.

I Just Want to Know

I can feel it in the air.
Things have changed and I'm completely aware.
You're pulling away,
And there's nothing for me to say.

This is probably how it should be.
You said you didn't want to hurt me.
And here's your way out,
Nothing to stress about.

Don't worry about sparing my feelings,
I just want to know one thing.
What would you say,
What would you do,
If I told you I met someone new?

I'm not saying I have.
But would you even care?
Would how you feel about me change?
Or would everything stay the same?

I'm not putting my life on hold,
I just like the way you keep me warm from the cold.
I like the way you make me feel,
And the fact that you are so real.

This is for the best,
And thank you for not being like all the rest.
You were honest right from the start,
And I knew I'd never have your heart.

Don't worry about sparing my feelings,
I just want to know this one thing...

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Never Learn

By know she thought she would have learned,
But she's always the one who ends up getting burned.
There have only been a select few,
Who make her feel the way he has the ability to do.

It's the story of her life.
Forever in the friend zone,
Always ending up alone.

She's not sure what it is about her
That makes them all want to leave.
It's the same story as before.
He came and got what he was looking for,
And now he doesn't need her anymore.

She has never felt worse,
It's like she's been cursed.
She's the girl that guys want to be with to have fun and play,
But they never want to stay.

She's such a catch,
And she keeps waiting to meet someone who's her match.
He's out there somewhere.
Someone who will care
And will be there.

She's getting tired of this game,
It always ends the same.

She thought she saw love in his eyes,
But she was just telling herself lies.
She saw what she wanted to see,
Not how things had actually come to be.

She had him confused,
And now her heart is bruised.
She should have learned,
She's always the one who ends up getting burned.

I Could Be...

I'm struggling to find the words
To describe how I feel.

Tell me what I need to do,
To be the girl for you.
I know I'm not perfect,
But I know I'd be good for you.

I could be
The one who is always there,
The one who will always care.
I could be your lover,
And you'd never need another.

I could be your biggest fan,
Proud to call you my man.
The only one you'll ever need,
Please don't make me plead.

I could be the type of girl
Who gives you her world.

Tell me what I need to do
To be the girl for you.
I know I'm not perfect,
But I could be good for you.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Someone Like You

I've been waiting for someone like you.
Someone I can talk to.
Someone who knows exactly what to say,
And who knows when to walk away.

I've spent my years looking,
Sat alone hoping
That I'd be lucky enough to find someone like you.
And now those hopes are coming true.

I've very fortunate,
And I hope our time together is something you'll never regret.
I'm lucky to know someone like you,
And let's face it,
You're lucky to know me too.

You're someone who will go that extra mile,
Just to see me smile.
You're someone who's kiss has the ability to set my body on fire,
Who's touch is full of desire.

I've learned from my past,
So I don't want to move too fast.
But I know I can make you happy,
If only given a chance.

Someone like you doesn't come around everyday,
Which is why, for now, I'm here to stay.

What You Do

You came out of the blue,
And I already know I'd be lost without you.
You're exactly who I've been hoping for,
You give me a feeling I've never felt before.

When I'm around you,
Nothing else seems to matter.
The outside world becomes a big blur.

You've managed to turn a light on inside me.
I can't remember the last time I was this happy.
It's happiness I've never felt before,
And I want more.

I'm trying to take things slow,
To see where this may go.
I'm trying to be patient,
Sometimes I think you're heaven-sent.

You say all the right things,
You make me laugh,
And make me feel like I could do anything.

You're just too good to be true.
I don't know what I did to deserve you.
I keep hoping I don't say or do the wrong thing,
Because losing you would be devastating.

I want to thank you for being you,
And for all that you do.
Even if this doesn't last,
And we're not meant to be,
You've shown me that I do deserve to be happy.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Through Any Weather...

Every time I pull up to your place,
I feel an instant smile spread across my face.

I've waited patiently to see you,
And have spent that time thinking about all the things we could do.
I see you and all I want is to be in your arms.
Even in the coldest chill you keep me warm.

I enjoy our time together,
No matter the weather.
When it's cold outside,
We can lay under the covers and hide.

When the sun is shining
And it feels just like spring,
We can go for a walk,
And just talk.

No matter the time of day,
We can always find ways to play.
It never matters what we do,
I just enjoy spending time with you.

This isn't some storybook romance,
But if given the chance
We could be good together
Through the good and bad weather.

We get along so well,
Anyone around us for a few minutes can tell.
There is something between us,
Something there,
We make quite the pair.

We aren't ready for anything serious,
Not ready for it to be just us.
I'm happy with how we are,
Although I wish you didn't live so far.

I wouldn't change a thing.
My time with you is never boring.
The more I learn about you,
The more I see,
Continues to make me happy.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


I've hidden my true feelings for so long.
I convinced myself I could never really care for someone.
So I only allowed myself to have fun.
But I couldn't have been more wrong.

You found me when I was lost in the dark,
You brought me back into the light.
And now I'm afraid to lose you.
I don't know what I'd do without having you to talk to.

I already miss you,
And you're not even gone.
I want to be with you sunrise to sunset,
And from dusk till dawn.
But you're not ready for that yet.
So I'll just have to make due.

I'll take you any way I can.
And that's my ultimate plan.
I'll be here as a friend,
And hope we have a chance in the end.

I'm terrified to lose you,
And you're not even mine.

You have lifted me higher,
And I've never been much of a crier,
But you have the ability to make me so happy it nearly brings me to tears.
I want this feeling to last through the years.

It's another love story
Over before it started,
But don't worry,
I'm not broken-hearted.

I knew it all happened so fast,
But had hoped it had the chance to last.

But I'll take you any way I can.
And that's my ultimate plan.
I'll be here as a friend,
And hope we have a chance in the end.

I'm not going to hold my breath.
I'm not going to stress.
Whatever is meant to be will be.
But I'll always hope that you'll end up with me.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Can't Stay...

I like you more than I can say.
Which is why I can't possibly stay.

The more time I spend with you,
With every phone call,
The deeper I fall.
And to my own heart I need to be true.

I want more,
But you want to get out and explore.
I won't hold you back,
Or stand in your way.
Which is why I can't possibly stay.

You're who I've been looking for,
But I need more.
This is a feeling so deep,
You're the first one I've wanted to keep.

The others have come and gone,
And I've had my fun.
I'm beginning to feel,
And this feels too real.

I get lost in your eyes,
I couldn't bare to tell you any lies.
This is a new feeling for me,
I'm not sure what it all means.

All I know is I like you more than I can say,
Which is why I can't possibly stay.

A Poem for My Favorite

Just a little something for my know who you are! ;-)

You're one of my very best friends,
And you know I'll be here for you until the very end.
Through all the silly boys
And their silly talking that we'll just call stupid noise.

You bring out the best in me,
Whenever I'm around you I can't help but be happy.
You help me stay strong,
We can't seem to go without talking for very long.

We can laugh about anything,
All it takes is the simplest thing.
I joke that you're my soul mate,
But it must be true...
Because I've never had a friend quite like you.

You've become my family,
And I would do anything for you.
I love you with all my heart,
And I knew we'd be close right from the very start.

You helped me keep smiling even when I was sad.
You're the last person I'd ever want to make mad.
You may call me out when I'm being a chicken shit,
But you'll always and forever be my favorite!