No More Lies

If you see me cry,
I'm just trying to apologize,
For every single time I told you a lie.

When you asked if I was ok,
And I said yes with a smile on my face,
I said everything was fine,
I lied.

You said I looked upset,
Asked if I was angry,
And I said I was happy,
It was a lie.

Deep down you knew
That I was lying to you.
But please know I only did it in a vain attempt to protect my heart.

I was angry with you,
And I was not ok,
Not because you lied or treated me badly,
But because you made me fall
And want to give you my all
From the very start.

And when I said I didn't care,
That I was happy with you as only my friend,
That you weren't the only one I was seeing,
With every fiber of my being,
I lied.

As I sit here writing and reminiscing our "fling"
Maxwell's playing in the background, singing about pretty wings.
And I can't help but feel this is the end,
That you and I will never be anything more than friends.

But I'm not mad anymore,
You reminded me of the fun life can have in store.
You helped me open up again
And finally let someone in.

There are no more tears,
No more sad thoughts
There are smiles
And fond memories,
And silent thank yous for all you've done for me.

So it's time for you and I to spread our pretty wings
And fulfill our own destinies.
Because I can't look at you and pretend I don't have feelings...
All I ask is that you smile when you think of me.

And I promise I won't tell you another lie,
Which is why it's time for me to say good bye.

Something There

Deep down she knows there's something there.
But that he's just scared.
She knows it could be something real,
But he pulled away when he started to feel.

She's not going to beg,
Or ask him to care
Or force him to admit there's something more there.

But she silently prays
That he'll wake up one day
And open his heart
Like she had from the very start.

The hardest part
Is that she was ready from the start.
She's not going to change,
She'll always be the same.

She's someone he could trust
And not loosing her is a must.

But she won't beg
Or ask him to care,
Or force him to admit there's something there.

He pushed her away when he started to feel
When he realized it all felt too real.
Said she was the one to blame,
That he didn't feel the same.

But deep down she knows he was just scared
Because there was something more there.
That he was scared
To open up again
To let someone new in,
To admit that he actually cared.

But she won't beg
Or ask him to care
Or force him to admit there's something more there.

Untitled

I toss and turn all night filled with fear.
It's become so hard for me to sleep without having you near.
As soon as I feel you close to me,
I breathe a sigh of relief
And sleep comes to me.

All I ever wanted was for you to want me.
But I know that it's just not meant to be.
And now I can't put into words what I feel,
I can't tell what's fake and what's real.

You are sitting no more than two feet away,
And I'm silently praying you ask me to stay.
But I feel alone,
And feel the distance between us has grown.

What hurts even more,
Is that I know deep down in my soul,
That I could make you happy.
That I could be exactly who you are looking for.

I've changed to try and make you happy,
I've lied to you and I've lied to myself.
This isn't who I am,
It's not who I am meant to be.

All I want is for you to open your eyes
See past the lies,
And really look at me.
See that I'd do anything to make you happy.

I know it's not what you want,
So I'm going to take a few more steps back,
Get myself back on track.

I was angry that night,
But only for making me want you.
I didn't want to argue or fight,
So I said I was fine,
When deep down all I wanted to say was I wish you were mine.

I'm not ready to say goodbye,
But I don't know how much longer I will be able to survive.
I can't put how you make me feel into words,
Just know that I could be your girl,
And that if you let me, I'd give you my world.

It's Time To...

It's time to make a change,
Time for this life to get rearranged.
I've been standing still for far too long,
Been making excuses about where I belong.

It's time to run,
Time to find my place in the sun.
It's time to move,
Time to get in the groove.

I'm doing this for me,
It's time for me to become the woman I'm meant to be.
I'm gonna shine,
It's my time.

It's time to move.
I've got everything to lose,
But it's time to reach just a little bit further,
Time to take a chance,
And hope it all works out,
Because that's what life is all about.

It's time to make a change,
Time for this life to get rearranged.
Time to move forward
And stop being a coward.

I might not get it right,
I might fail,
But I'm going to keep up the fight,
And follow this trail.

This is my time.
It's time to move.

Imagination

There are times when my imagination starts to run free,
And almost gets the best of me.

I start to feel more than I should,
More than I thought I would.
I get confused at what is real,
And don't know how to deal with how I feel.

I imagine how life would be if it was you and me.
And happiness is all I can see.
I imagine you see me as the real thing,
And not just a convenient fling.

I imagine the warmth of your embrace,
And my heart starts to race.
I imagine that when you look at me, you see more than your friend,
That you and I will somehow make it work in the end.

But as soon as I am out of my reverie,
I realize that it was just my imagination trying to get the best of me.
I'm brought back to reality,
But your face is still all I see.

There are times where I hate my wild imagination,
And I try to fight this infatuation,
But it still brings me moments of pure bliss,
And I realize it's something that I would miss.

So for now, I'll let my imagination run free,
And hope that it doesn't get the best of me.

The Ungettable Get

What do you do
When all you seem to want is him,
But he doesn't feel the same about you?

No one else seems to catch your eye
Because no one else is quite like him,
But you can't seem to get him out of your head and you don't know why.

He's the ungettable get,
And you just haven't figured it out yet.
That he's not the one for you,
And if you stick around for too long,
You'll just end up looking like a fool.
Because maybe he's just not that into you.

You sit and wonder what it is you lack,
Why you're not quite good enough for him
Why this is always the kind of guy you attract.

They're always too busy,
Or just want to be single and free.
Maybe they still have feelings for an ex,
Whatever it is, they all end up being another ungettable get.

You must be some kind of sick masochist,
To continue to put up with this,
But you can't help who you fall for
And hope one day one of them will turn out to be more.

You try not to get upset,
And hope that he's your last ungettable get...

My Falling Star

I hate myself for doing what I said I wouldn't do.
But I can't change the fact that I have fallen for you.
I said I wouldn't get attached,
But it's hard not to do when we make such a good match.

I should have never let it go this far,
You've become my falling star.
You're fading away just as quickly as you appeared,
And now I'm living what I always feared.

That you don't want me,
That this really isn't meant to be.
I know I should walk away,
But I just don't know if I'm ready.

Do I walk away now to save myself some of the pain,
Or do I hang on just a little while longer.
They say what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger,
And that to see a rainbow you have to endure the rain...

Truth be told, my time with you has made me happy,
And even if it's not meant to be,
The pain I will feel once this over and done,
Will be worth it for the moments of happiness,
And my moment in the sun
That you have given me.

I hate myself for doing what I said I wouldn't do,
But I can't change the fact that I have fallen for you.
You're my falling star,
Brilliant, beautiful and quickly fading into the dark,
But strong enough to leave a permanent mark
On my heart.

The Silence

The silence is driving me insane,
And it's giving me the slightest sensation of pain.
Part of me is dying to call you,
But maybe this is how you want it to be.
Your silence is telling me you want to be free.

I never wanted to push you into anything,
You never wanted this to be more than a fling.
But my feelings have grown,
And you must have known.

I know you would never intentionally hurt me,
But to tell you the truth it is clear to see,
The longer I take to leave,
The harder it's going to be.

I envy the woman who puts you under her spell,
She will be the luckiest girl in the world as far as I can tell.

The silence is driving me insane,
It's giving me the slightest sensation of pain.
This has always been my curse,
Only this time, it feels so much worse.

The silence haunts me,
But this is the way it needs to be.
Be careful what you wish for,
Because you never know what's in store.

Please don't pity me,
All I want is for you to be happy.
We were doomed from the start,
So I need to go before you have a chance to completely steal my heart.

I'll be just fine,
All I need is some time.
I'll eventually meet the man who wants to be all mine.
And until then it will be an uphill climb,
But never underestimate the heart of a hopeless romantic.
Because she will always believe in love and magic...

If He Can't See

Never let him call you fat.
Never let him bring you down.
He's the one who will end up looking like a clown,
I can promise you that.

Don't let him take away your smile,
Don't let him change your style.
Your inner beauty shines so bright,
Don't let him take away your light.

Every woman should be treated like the queen she truly is.
Don't allow him to treat you like dirt,
He's not trying to help you, his aim is to hurt.
He wants you to feel insecure,
Because he obviously is.

If he can't see how beautiful you are,
Or how lucky he is to have you,
Then it's time you walked away,
There's no reason good enough for you to stay.

I know it's easier said than done,
But trust me, he is not the one.
You can do so much better,
You're going to find someone who wants you just the way you are.
It's how you feel inside that really matters,
You are nothing short of a brilliant star.

If he can't see how beautiful you are,
Or how lucky he is to have you,
Then it's time you walked away,
There's no reason good enough for you to stay.

What is Love?

Can anyone really define love?
Is there really any one description that fits like a glove?
What is that feeling you get in your chest?
What makes you want to give your very best?
It can make you do things you never thought you could,
Or even say things you never thought you would.

Love is a tremendous force,
So strong it can make you change course.
Love knows no bounds,
It's what makes the world go 'round.

When you feel it,
It has the power to take your breath away,
And leave you unable to know what to say.
You can feel a small fire inside you being lit.

Some people will spend their entire lives searching,
Others are fortunate enough to find the real thing.

Love has its flaws,
It doesn't follow any set of laws.
It can be blind,
It can be unkind.

But it is so utterly amazing,
That if you're lucky enough to find the real thing,
Your life will never be the same.
That love in your heart will burn like an undying flame.

I'm still looking,
Still waiting...
Hoping that one day my love and I will meet,
And it will sweep me off my feet.

On Your Birthday

We haven't spoken in a year,
I've already shed any and all tears over you.
I said I was done talking to you,
And it hasn't been easy to do...

So just for today,
I'm calling to wish you a happy birthday.
This doesn't mean anything more,
Things will never go back to how they were before.
This doesn't mean I want to get back with you,
It doesn't mean I've forgotten all you said,
But on this day, I just couldn't seem to get you out of my head.

Against my better judgement I'm calling you today,
But I just had to wish you a happy birthday.

I've met someone new,
And he doesn't remind me at all of you.
I'm still trying to figure out if that's good or bad
Because you are a part of some of the best times I've ever had.
He's different from you in so many ways,
And deep down I am hoping he's the one who stays.

I don't mean to be cruel,
But I'm not that same young fool.
I've learned to look out for the good guys,
And give them a real chance,
Because I got tired of all the lies.

I know it didn't work between us,
But I honestly wish you nothing but happiness.
You and I could never just be friends,
But maybe that's what we'll be able to be in the end.

This may have been a mistake to call,
But I just had to call you today,
To wish you a happy birthday.

Swallow My Pride

I'm not sure why I believed you'd call.
I sat by the phone for a good part of my day,
Trying to come up with the right words to say.
We went so long without even a text,
So what did I expect.

Maybe you forgot,
Maybe you just don't care,
But whatever your excuse,
It's just not fair.

I opened my heart to you
And this is what you do.

I know that the situation won't change,
So from now on I won't say a word
Because you already have a girl,
And I'm not the kind of girl who will stay,
When I know I need to walk away.

Part of me knew it was wrong.
I knew it all along,
It's just not meant to be
And I honestly just want you to be happy.

So just like before,
I'll swallow my pride,
I'll never ask for more
And put all these feelings aside.

I will pretend like you never said a thing,
When you start to hear those wedding bells ring,
I'll be there with a big smile on my face.

Sorry to have caused any extra stress,
I know I was a mess.
It's hard to hide from those deep old feelings,
Even when digging them up won't change a thing.

So just like before,
I'm swallowing my pride,
Never asking for more,
And burying those feelings deeper inside.

I've got them under lock and key,
And that's where they'll stay as long as you are happy.

The Only Way to Be

Deep down I always knew it was just a game.
But I know I'll always be the same.
I was ready to give him my heart
Right from the start.

I know I can come on strong,
And for some I play the game all wrong,
But I have so much love inside me
and it's the only way I know how to be.

I'll never regret going through this,
Never regret a single kiss...
Because he opened my mind, body and soul
To so much I had never known.

I have all this love inside me,
It's the only way I know how to be.
So I'm not going to change a thing,
Because if the next one doesn't like me for me,
He can spread his wings
And leave me be.

I'm gonna find the one who wants my love
And he'll never put anyone else above,
And until I find him...
I'm going to keep being me
Because that's the only way I know how to be.

No Matter the Cost

Her heart starts to beat
At an alarming pace.
She feels a sudden wave of heat,
And a deep red blush covers her face.

Just one thought of him,
And she feels lost.
Her head starts to swim
And she knows she needs him no matter the cost.

He drives her crazy,
In more ways than one.
But when she's with him she's in ecstasy,
It's limitless fun.

She hates when he's not around,
But won't let it bring her down.
She waits patiently until she's back in his arms,
She's never felt more warm.

She gets a feeling she's never felt before,
And she craves more.
He's become an addiction
And she fiends for his attention.

She can't get him off her mind,
He is definitely one of a kind.
One thought of him and she feels lost,
And she knows she'll have him no matter the cost.

Never Too Close

She feels like she needs to hide.
Very few people have seen her vulnerable side.
She hides behind a shield,
Always keeping her options open on the field.

She'll let him in,
But never too close,
She's terrified of being forgotten,
And as she gets closer the fear only grows.

She shows him what she thinks he wants to see,
And tries to control the "crazy."
Not as a lie,
Or out of malice,
But out of necessity.

She's been hurt so many times,
She's lost track.
She's felt deep pain,
And doesn't want to go through it again.

But something is changing,
She finds herself lingering.
He's not like the others.
He has some power over her,
And deep hidden feelings are beginning to stir.

There's a pressure building inside,
Something so strong it's getting harder and harder for her to hide.
She's starting to feel more than she should,
More than she ever thought she could.

It feels like a blazing fire,
She's never felt anything like this desire.
But she's going to keep it all locked up tight,
She'll only accept it when she's alone at night.

She'll let him in,
But never too close.
She's terrified of being forgotten,
And as she gets closer the fear only grows.

Thanksgiving

I just wanted to take a minute to express my gratitude for all the amazing people in my life. I know I've said it before, but I don't think it can be said enough....

I am truly blessed. I am so grateful for all the people in my life and for those who are no longer a part of it...Everyone I have met has come into my life for a reason and I'm so thankful for each and every one of them.

Thank you.

Thanks for all the memories,
For helping me find...me.

Thanks for giving me someone in whom I could confide.
Thanks for helping me stay brave,
Even when all I wanted was to run and hide.

Thank you for helping me be strong,
And for helping me right my wrongs.
I owe so much to you all,
You've always been there to catch me when I fall.

I can't say thank you enough,
For all the support, love and the other stuff.
I am truly blessed,
And it's something I will continue to confess.

I Just Want to Know

I can feel it in the air.
Things have changed and I'm completely aware.
You're pulling away,
And there's nothing for me to say.

This is probably how it should be.
You said you didn't want to hurt me.
And here's your way out,
Nothing to stress about.

Don't worry about sparing my feelings,
I just want to know one thing.
What would you say,
What would you do,
If I told you I met someone new?

I'm not saying I have.
But would you even care?
Would how you feel about me change?
Or would everything stay the same?

I'm not putting my life on hold,
I just like the way you keep me warm from the cold.
I like the way you make me feel,
And the fact that you are so real.

This is for the best,
And thank you for not being like all the rest.
You were honest right from the start,
And I knew I'd never have your heart.

Don't worry about sparing my feelings,
I just want to know this one thing...

Never Learn

By know she thought she would have learned,
But she's always the one who ends up getting burned.
There have only been a select few,
Who make her feel the way he has the ability to do.

It's the story of her life.
Forever in the friend zone,
Always ending up alone.

She's not sure what it is about her
That makes them all want to leave.
It's the same story as before.
He came and got what he was looking for,
And now he doesn't need her anymore.

She has never felt worse,
It's like she's been cursed.
She's the girl that guys want to be with to have fun and play,
But they never want to stay.

She's such a catch,
And she keeps waiting to meet someone who's her match.
He's out there somewhere.
Someone who will care
And will be there.

She's getting tired of this game,
It always ends the same.

She thought she saw love in his eyes,
But she was just telling herself lies.
She saw what she wanted to see,
Not how things had actually come to be.

She had him confused,
And now her heart is bruised.
She should have learned,
She's always the one who ends up getting burned.

I Could Be...

I'm struggling to find the words
To describe how I feel.

Tell me what I need to do,
To be the girl for you.
I know I'm not perfect,
But I know I'd be good for you.

I could be
The one who is always there,
The one who will always care.
I could be your lover,
And you'd never need another.

I could be your biggest fan,
Proud to call you my man.
The only one you'll ever need,
Please don't make me plead.

I could be the type of girl
Who gives you her world.

Tell me what I need to do
To be the girl for you.
I know I'm not perfect,
But I could be good for you.

Someone Like You

I've been waiting for someone like you.
Someone I can talk to.
Someone who knows exactly what to say,
And who knows when to walk away.

I've spent my years looking,
Sat alone hoping
That I'd be lucky enough to find someone like you.
And now those hopes are coming true.

I've very fortunate,
And I hope our time together is something you'll never regret.
I'm lucky to know someone like you,
And let's face it,
You're lucky to know me too.

You're someone who will go that extra mile,
Just to see me smile.
You're someone who's kiss has the ability to set my body on fire,
Who's touch is full of desire.

I've learned from my past,
So I don't want to move too fast.
But I know I can make you happy,
If only given a chance.

Someone like you doesn't come around everyday,
Which is why, for now, I'm here to stay.