Thursday, December 31, 2009

On Your Birthday

We haven't spoken in a year,
I've already shed any and all tears over you.
I said I was done talking to you,
And it hasn't been easy to do...

So just for today,
I'm calling to wish you a happy birthday.
This doesn't mean anything more,
Things will never go back to how they were before.
This doesn't mean I want to get back with you,
It doesn't mean I've forgotten all you said,
But on this day, I just couldn't seem to get you out of my head.

Against my better judgement I'm calling you today,
But I just had to wish you a happy birthday.

I've met someone new,
And he doesn't remind me at all of you.
I'm still trying to figure out if that's good or bad
Because you are a part of some of the best times I've ever had.
He's different from you in so many ways,
And deep down I am hoping he's the one who stays.

I don't mean to be cruel,
But I'm not that same young fool.
I've learned to look out for the good guys,
And give them a real chance,
Because I got tired of all the lies.

I know it didn't work between us,
But I honestly wish you nothing but happiness.
You and I could never just be friends,
But maybe that's what we'll be able to be in the end.

This may have been a mistake to call,
But I just had to call you today,
To wish you a happy birthday.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Swallow My Pride

I'm not sure why I believed you'd call.
I sat by the phone for a good part of my day,
Trying to come up with the right words to say.
We went so long without even a text,
So what did I expect.

Maybe you forgot,
Maybe you just don't care,
But whatever your excuse,
It's just not fair.

I opened my heart to you
And this is what you do.

I know that the situation won't change,
So from now on I won't say a word
Because you already have a girl,
And I'm not the kind of girl who will stay,
When I know I need to walk away.

Part of me knew it was wrong.
I knew it all along,
It's just not meant to be
And I honestly just want you to be happy.

So just like before,
I'll swallow my pride,
I'll never ask for more
And put all these feelings aside.

I will pretend like you never said a thing,
When you start to hear those wedding bells ring,
I'll be there with a big smile on my face.

Sorry to have caused any extra stress,
I know I was a mess.
It's hard to hide from those deep old feelings,
Even when digging them up won't change a thing.

So just like before,
I'm swallowing my pride,
Never asking for more,
And burying those feelings deeper inside.

I've got them under lock and key,
And that's where they'll stay as long as you are happy.

Monday, December 14, 2009

The Only Way to Be

Deep down I always knew it was just a game.
But I know I'll always be the same.
I was ready to give him my heart
Right from the start.

I know I can come on strong,
And for some I play the game all wrong,
But I have so much love inside me
and it's the only way I know how to be.

I'll never regret going through this,
Never regret a single kiss...
Because he opened my mind, body and soul
To so much I had never known.

I have all this love inside me,
It's the only way I know how to be.
So I'm not going to change a thing,
Because if the next one doesn't like me for me,
He can spread his wings
And leave me be.

I'm gonna find the one who wants my love
And he'll never put anyone else above,
And until I find him...
I'm going to keep being me
Because that's the only way I know how to be.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

No Matter the Cost

Her heart starts to beat
At an alarming pace.
She feels a sudden wave of heat,
And a deep red blush covers her face.

Just one thought of him,
And she feels lost.
Her head starts to swim
And she knows she needs him no matter the cost.

He drives her crazy,
In more ways than one.
But when she's with him she's in ecstasy,
It's limitless fun.

She hates when he's not around,
But won't let it bring her down.
She waits patiently until she's back in his arms,
She's never felt more warm.

She gets a feeling she's never felt before,
And she craves more.
He's become an addiction
And she fiends for his attention.

She can't get him off her mind,
He is definitely one of a kind.
One thought of him and she feels lost,
And she knows she'll have him no matter the cost.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Never Too Close

She feels like she needs to hide.
Very few people have seen her vulnerable side.
She hides behind a shield,
Always keeping her options open on the field.

She'll let him in,
But never too close,
She's terrified of being forgotten,
And as she gets closer the fear only grows.

She shows him what she thinks he wants to see,
And tries to control the "crazy."
Not as a lie,
Or out of malice,
But out of necessity.

She's been hurt so many times,
She's lost track.
She's felt deep pain,
And doesn't want to go through it again.

But something is changing,
She finds herself lingering.
He's not like the others.
He has some power over her,
And deep hidden feelings are beginning to stir.

There's a pressure building inside,
Something so strong it's getting harder and harder for her to hide.
She's starting to feel more than she should,
More than she ever thought she could.

It feels like a blazing fire,
She's never felt anything like this desire.
But she's going to keep it all locked up tight,
She'll only accept it when she's alone at night.

She'll let him in,
But never too close.
She's terrified of being forgotten,
And as she gets closer the fear only grows.