I've had my heart broken so many times, I've stopped keeping track.
I've yet to find that real love, and a real legitimate love connection with someone. Either I get in my own way, the timing is all wrong, they are unavailable, or we are just not right for each other (just to name a few reasons).
I've been let down by so many. I've been led on. I've been taken for granted. I have been used. I have been embarrassed. I've felt an incredible connection to someone, just to have them toss me to the side like an old rag.
It used to bring me down, but you can't sit and cry over something you can't change. You can't live a life of regrets, so now I just take them as lessons learned. I try to learn from each one in hopes that I will eventually get it right.
Confession #9: Despite the heartbreak, I believe with every fiber of my being, that there is someone out there for me. I just haven't met him yet.
Every step I have taken, every mistake I've made is taking me closer to him. With each step I take, with each breath I take, we are being brought closer to each other. Each heartbreak is preparing me, testing me so that I will know the real thing when I see it. I have no idea when we will finally meet, or how, but I will never lose my faith in love or in the fact that I do deserve to feel it.
There are so many songs that remind me of this every time I hear them...just to name a few,
"Love Song for No One" - John Mayer
It's hard to pick a favorite line, but if I had to choose:
Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song to no one
Another one of my favorites is Janet Jackson's "Someone to Call My Lover"
Friends say I'm crazy cause
Easily I fall in love
You gotta do it different (J)
Maybe we'll meet at a bar
He'll drive a funky car
Maybe we'll meet at a club
And fall so deeply in love
He'll tell me I'm the one
And we'll have so much fun
I'll be the girl of his dreams maybe
I absolutely love both of those songs, but as of right now, Michael Buble's "Haven't Met You Yet" is my song
I'm not even going to write my favorite line, because I love the whole song...it's just so me, lol...so here are all the lyrics, followed by the official video =)
What it all comes down to is faith in love. Despite the tears and the heartbreak, I believe in love and that there is someone out there for me.